fragile things

Hello Blogging Friends!

I have been a bit on the down side since my last post, in bed sick. Not a good thing for me to be sick, I have to be able to take care of D. and I can tell you that the past few days it has not been an easy job for me. Getting out of bed to get water has been more than I could manage. I was literally crawling down the stairs last night to check on him. There was not one spot on my body that did not hurt or scream in pain. I did not have any Aleve or Tylenol, not able to go get them myself and did not want D. on his feet. At 5:30 a.m. this morning, I gave in and tried a half of one of D's Percocets. I have a thing about medicine, I don't like it and it kinda freaks me out to take anything new, I had a bad reaction to something a dentist gave me one time and ended up in E.R. But by the time I swallowed this little pill, I no longer cared. I feel a bit better tonight. I've managed to stay up an hour. This morning, it took me forever to fix D's breakfast. I started the water for his oatmeal, went to the sofa for a bit, put oatmeal in the pan, went to the sofa, went and got the yogurt out of the fridge, went back to the sofa, put walnuts on the plate, went back to the sofa, you get the point. Then at 12:30, I had to check and wrap his feet for a doctor's app., I needed to go and was very worried about him going alone, but I had no choice. I finally managed to get his feet done, after repeating the same routine with his feet that I had performed during breakfast. About 6:00 I got back up and made him a sandwich, not the best meal for him, it was a pretty simple sandwich. :)

His doctor called in three other doctors to look at his feet, they decided not to keep him, but said if there was any change in any way to move immediately.

So, I am hoping tomorrow I will feel more normal. I am waiting for a hot bath and hopefully, some sleep tonight.

Hopefully, all my blogging friends are feeling healthy and joyful!!!

Btw, I was too sick to check the powerball tickets I purchased this morning. Found out when I came online that one of the winners was in Kansas City. I was just sure it was going to be me and I would be able to fix some of the world's problems, including my own. :) It wasn't. I didn't even win back the $4 I spent. Next time!!! :)

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comfort words and comfort eats

If you have not had the joy of reading Neil Gaiman or Simon Van Booy, do so. Trust me, you will not be sorry; it is an enjoyable treat!

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I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like martians in War of the Worlds.

I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman.

I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumble bee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.

I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.

I believe that anyone who says sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too.

I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.

I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.”

― Neil Gaiman, American Gods

On a different note, I made BBQ chicken pizza, with red onion, mozzarella and smoke Gouda cheese tonight. I did something different, I did not make pizza crust, instead, I thawed out some roll dough (this was store bought) rolled it out and put the toppings on - easy and quite delicious! Since I have enough leftover toppings, I will make it again tomorrow.

I read the recipe from Pioneer Woman Cooks but changed it up a bit to suit my taste. I never thought I would like BBQ pizza, I was so wrong.

Photos are that great, it was already dark in the house and I had to use a flash (which I hate using on food). Oh well, you get the idea. I was also in a bit of a hurry, as David's blood glucose was getting low and I needed to get some food in him.

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Updated photo - since I had enough stuff leftover from last night's pizza, it gave me the chance to tweak the pizza a bit. It was delicious last night, tonight even tastier. I added a little more BBQ sauce to the crust, a little more cheese, and baked it on the middle rack instead of the lower rack. I like the way it cooked better. I also added  more cilantro, just yummy!

I just LOVE this...

“I can believe things that are true and things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not.

I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and the Beatles and Marilyn Monroe and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen - I believe that people are perfectable, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkled lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women.

I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state.

I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste.

I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like martians in War of the Worlds.

I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman.

I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumble bee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.

I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.

I believe that anyone who says sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too.

I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.

I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.”

― Neil Gaiman, American Gods

Monday Nostalgia

I have a secret to share...I don't want to but I feel I must. First, let me say that I am a disciplined eater and eat quite healthy...most of the time. However, I have a weakness! It's cotton candy. Funny thing is, I don't even like really sweet desserts and I prefer dark chocolate to milk chocolate. I always cut the sugar in anything I bake, so how is it I love cotton candy so much?

Tasting something like.........HEAVEN.

Maybe because it brings back memories of my dad taking me to the carnival each year and getting to have one cotton candy to devour. I grew up in a small town and it was a rare treat to come in contact with the soft, cloud-like spun sugar. I am embarrassed to express how much I love this stuff, but I do. I truly do LOVE it.

 

I am thankful the store I frequent does not have this stuff all the time. I have so overdosed on sugar today, and it doesn't feel good, but...no doubt, I would do it all over again.

and for some more nostalgia...

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly."

— Siddhārtha Gautama

"Good books don't give up all their secrets at once."

— Stephen King

"Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe."

— Neil Gaiman