Today I am exhausted, and my thoughts are running through my mind like a mouse running through a maze looking for a way out.
“We're all of us sentenced to solitary confinement inside our own skins, for life!”
~Tennessee Williams
I came home from the hospital last night, feeling so alone and scared. I had trouble sleeping and controlling my thinking, the night was dark and long. I don’t like imposing on people and do not feel comfortable calling on others, not even family. I tried thinking of something that felt safe and secure, something I had not really ever thought about or given thought to came to mind - Growing up my grandma and grandpa’s house was within hollering distance, only a creek and bridge separated us. I could look out our kitchen window and see my grandma’s kitchen window. She was an early riser; she would always be up at 5 a.m. I can remember getting up and it still dark outside, looking out the kitchen window and seeing grandma’s kitchen light on...such comforting sight. I knew for certain she was making coffee and cooking bacon. On her small kitchen table was a lazy susan, which held salt, pepper, homespun honey, grape jelly, and butter, always. I’m not sure why this memory came to mind last night, but it felt safe and comforting.
I am often amazed at how spot-on my messages from The Universe are. This was my message from the Universe today:
It's true, Debra, sometimes when you've had a difficult day, or met difficult people, been let down, disappointed, or heartbroken, it's easy to completely forget the most important thing of all... you're alive.
Without even trying.
Who loves ya?
The Universe
