Trying to keep busy and not think too much these days. Lots going on. I go to the hospital Friday for more tests. Was supposed to schedule a surgery last week and didn't get that done. It all feels like too much lately - carrying this load so totally alone. It feels like a huge wave has washed over me and carried me out to a turbulent and stormy sea.
I think having no one to talk to and encourage me that it will all be okay is the hardest part.
Life is sooo very hard!