Monday, January 09, 2012

Emerging...

The New Year has me hoping more... longing to emerge from that dark place I have been for too long. I promised myself that "I" would force myself to get back into my hobby room and start working on my visual journal. And, that maybe, just maybe, it would be my ladder to climb out of the dungeon. Yesterday was my first day back to journaling - it felt good. Sometimes I find it hard to write things down, to be real with myself - as if I am afraid that writing it on paper makes the fear and pain even more real. Maybe I am afraid someone will actually read it someday? And frankly, it felt a little awkward and I know I really held back, but with time, I want to shed the fear and allow myself to "walk on water" so to speak. There was a time when I wrote a lot, and wrote a lot of poetry - not afraid of the words and thoughts or, putting them on paper. Maybe this will help to find my way back the feeling the way I used to feel, alive.


You can purchase this beautiful Seashell Crochet Scarf at my Etsy shop.

 
Also worked on a crochet project and finished it, trying to get my handmade Etsy shop going. Absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE this scarf!!! I'm finding it hard to list it, but I MUST. :) It is so soft and cozy, long, and the color is delicious!
 
                                            

8 comments:

Laurie said...

Gorgeous scarf! Evidence of getting back into it!

LadyCat said...

I love the scarf...looks so soft and cozy.
I think writing things down is very therapeutic. I write poems when I need to get something out. I am the only one who sees most of them.
Keep writing : )

adrielleroyale said...

Walking out of the fear and into the light takes quite a lot of courage...and one step at a time. I am doing the same, so I suppose we are not alone in our quest :)

Jo said...

I'm with you. I've started so many journals in the past few years, only to destroy them after two or three entries. This year I'm determined to follow through. And I am with you completely in worrying just a bit that someone may read my personal thoughts one day. Also, I can identify with the feeling that putting pen to paper intensifies the feelings we're "getting out". But, maybe letting things be just as real as they can be will help us push through, and even lead to new insight. Here's hoping! And here's to writing it all down!! Tonight, when I journal, I'll take comfort in the fact that you are picking up your pen and putting it out there, too.
xox

Sixpence and A Blue Moon said...

Hi Laurie,
Thanks so much! Nice of you to visit, come by anytime.
xOx

LadyCat,
Thank you for the compliment on the scarf. I, too, used to write poems, but the past couple of years I haven't written anything. I was going through some of my old art journals tonight and realized how much I need to get back to doing this, for myself. I will try. How's your New Year? Wonderful I do hope. xOx

Adrielle, I guess we all have our tunnels of darkness to walk through, at some time in our lives and possibly many times...and far too often it is a lonely path. I hope you are finding the light. xOx

Sixpence and A Blue Moon said...

Jo, we will do this together...we CAN do it! :) I wish I had my own code to write everything in, where no one could decipher it after I'm gone. :) I believe keeping a journal can be therapeutic if we can be real and honest with what we write. I've never done a journal where I am totally honest in my writing. Not sure I will be in this one either, but I am going to put my best foot forward. Knowing you are doing the same is going to help me when I write, just knowing there is another person in this world who has the same fears and doubts about putting their true self on paper. You're so creative and talented. I bet your journals are beautiful. Here's to a beautiful year with beautiful journaling! :) We CAN do it!

Margie said...

I journal almost every day and find it very good for the soul!

I hope the New Year brings you much joy!

I so love your scarf!
I have quite a collection of scarves and love wearing them!
They add so much to one's wardrobe!

Be well, take care!


Margie x

Sixpence and A Blue Moon said...

Hi Margie,

I hope I get back to journaling every day, at least I have the intent to do so.:)

May you have a wonderful and blessed year.

P.S. I have more scarves and hats than space to keep them. :) I just love them.

Thanks so much for coming by. xOx