Wednesday, July 08, 2015

One Of The Weird Ones

While looking at this chair (which I love and adore, btw!) I started thinking about an experience I had last week.  I love this chair, the imperfections make it perfect and beautiful! And I love making things, especially quilts that have odds and ends, where nothing matches but it all comes together perfectly to create a beautiful masterpiece. It's the way I like to decorate also, mixing and matching interesting and unique items and pieces that others would never imagine. There is nothing I find so uninteresting as walking into a house that looks
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it should be in a furniture showroom - I find it generic and void of spirit.

On to my story...Last week I found out just how the people you think will stick with you, and not be so judgmental are not really those kind of people at all. They may even be more judgmental thank anyone else. The saddest part of all, they really know nothing of you or your life. The trials and tribulations you endure on a day-to-day basis, and sometimes hour-to-hour and minute-by-minute. When they would rather see you alone and empty than have a friend who is there when you are falling apart and have no one else to call or rely on when your world is collapsing all around you.

I've learned a lot this past week.

And I reaffirmed what I have always believed and known of myself, I do not admire plastic and pretentious people.

I do not fit into anyone's narrow and shallow square box. I have no intentions of trying to do so. I am ME, trying to find a reason to get out of bed every morning and put one foot in front of the others. And finding those reasons these days are hard to find... And getting harder every day. I am tired of trying to find the money to buy meds, trying to find money to fix the car, the hot water heater, the broken washer, etc. This week I have given up getting my meds this month in order to buy David's. I can already tell a big difference after two days of no meds, I'm having trouble walking and barely bend any of my fingers.

I apologize for this post. I'm just so very tired and ill right now, and I'm hoping writing it out will help.

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Gail said...

Life certainly can kick you in the teeth sometimes but there is help sometimes in the oddest places.

I'm not sure where you are but unimportant. Some drug companies will help you with your medication. My sister gets some of her meds that way. Just ask, no matter how difficult it is to ask, there may be someone who just bought a new washer and want to give away their old one that still works. Research on the internet, there may be help just waiting for you to find it.

I do love that chair and it has given me an idea. With quilts, this would be a crazy quilts, would this be a crazy chair?

I hope writing this has helped you sometimes simply sharing a burden makes it lighter.

Sixpence and A Blue Moon said...

Gail, thanks so much for your kind and generous advice. I will look into the possibility of that. It's so crazy, just been without of my meds for two days and I am having a hard time walking, strange how quickly your body reacts. I had a really bad week last week, so I am sure that had something to do with it.

Well, I think the chair is a crazy chair. Isn't it just darling? I love it! I have a foot stool I am going to do this with, once I am feeling better. I'll post a pic of it once it is completed.

Again, I really appreciate your comment!!! Thank you!!!

Gail said...

It is difficult to stop taking some meds all at once. Your body tells your brain, hey, where's my stuff and things do seem insurmountable then for sure.

Hang in there. The answer will come just when you need it most.

Sixpence and A Blue Moon said...

Gail, I appreciate your thoughts and encouraging words so very much!You are so right, the body kind of goes into shock I guess when things so abruptly. I feel a bit better today. :)

I hope you are having a wonderful summer. We are having very strange weather, cold one day and hot the next. It got down to 62 one day this week???

Gail said...

We have had an unusual amount of rain and hoping some is saved for August and September.

Most days have been pleasant and have not turned the air on in the bedroom yet. We've had many hot days but it cools at night and it's bearable.

I've been trying to catch up outside and in after having unplanned guests for seven months (daughter was in a car wreck. She and her son stayed with us til she could walk and work again) Some days I wonder why.

I'm so glad you are doing better today.

You have my email any time you want to talk.

Have a blessed day.

Sixpence and A Blue Moon said...

Gail, you are the sweetest and most kind person! Thank you!!!

I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, but glad to hear she is doing better and that it was no worse. My prayers and thoughts for her.

Well, it's about time to take a hot bath and go to bed, dr's app. tomorrow.

Thank you very much!

Wishing you a wonderful and peaceful weekend ahead.